Here is my farewell to you. I regret that it’s taken me so long to type this. On my way to drop a friend off tonight, I was forced to drive by your house. The house where I spent an entire year eagerly awaiting waking up beside you mid afternoon to work on whatever projects you were fixated upon. Waking up to as the afternoon crept through the windows to coffee, chain smoking, Johnny Cash, and schematics of Tessla Coils were a familiarity of my past summer, What a humid summer it was as we build circuits hours after hours. After several months we built 5 Tessla Coils, all of which functional… I loved to watch you work. It was as if watching a genius at his prime. I could not help but to be inspired. 

But, I’ve got to let you go and I know that the white car parked behind you is what you need for the time being. But I will never forget how low your eyes looked when I said goodbye.

I’ve got to say goodbye to you forever. You are not healthy for me and as much as I regret this decision, I’ve got to let you go both physically and emotionally. You were not right for me as a partner in the long term, but you have taught me so much that I will carry with me forever. I will be left with the intrigue for science and the fascination of the unknown. Unfortunately, I will be left with the scars inflicted upon me as a result. 

As I say farewell to you, I know it will open up doors towards better things to come.

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ilovecharts: I got takeout Chinese food last night while preparing for today’s posts.  This chart ensued. -Will
l-umiere: nerahsladnuh: Einstein and his therapist. “Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.” -Hemingway  I will always reblog this. i’ve been looking for this picture for ages, i love it, something about it just…gets to me
naturalae: toxic-d-reams: eclisi: pure perfection ☯toxic-d-reams.tumblr.com ☯ ♡
thenoobyorker: Nikola Tesla, the eugenicist, the following is taken from the Paleofuture blog at The Smithsonian website, Like any man, Tesla was far from perfect and sometimes had very warped ideas about how the world should operate. One of Tesla’s most disturbing ideas was his belief in using eugenics to purify the human race. In the 1930s, Tesla expressed his belief that the forced sterilization of criminals and the mentally ill — which was occurring in some European countries (most disturbingly Nazi Germany) and in many states in the U.S. — wasn’t going far enough. He believed that by the year 2100 eugenics would be “universally established” as a system of weeding out undesirable people from the population. The February 9, 1935 issue of Liberty magazine includes many other fascinating predictions by Tesla for the future of humanity, which we’ll no doubt look at in the weeks ahead. But for the time being I’ve transcribed only the eugenics portion of Tesla’s predictions below, to remind us that we should be cautious when making gods of men: The year 2100 will see eugenics universally established. In past ages, the law governing the survival of the fittest roughly weeded out the less desirable strains. Then man’s new sense of pity began to interfere with the ruthless workings of nature. As a result, we continue to keep alive and to breed the unfit. The only method compatible with our notions of civilization and the race is to prevent the breeding of the unfit by sterilization and the deliberate guidance of the mating instinct. Several European countries and a number of states of the American Union sterilize the criminal and the insane. This is not sufficient. The trend of opinion among eugenists is that we must make marriage more difficult. Certainly no one who is not a desirable parent should be permitted to produce progeny. A century from now it will no more occur to a normal person to mate with a person eugenically unfit than to marry a habitual criminal. The ideas behind eugenics would become substantially less popular after World War II, for obvious reasons. I doubt that Tesla understood the scope of the atrocities that were being committed in Europe (and at the hands of the California eugenics movement) at the time. But again, his ideas were clear: the world should be rid of so-called undesirables. However unpleasant the idea of eugenics is to reasonable people on its surface, this notion seems particularly strange coming from a man like Tesla, whose own mental illnesses would have likely put him in the “undesirable” category under any authoritarian regime. That Nikola Tesla held these beliefs has been known for years, this is why his designation as “the greatest geek who ever lived” or the subsequent conversion of his life into some moral tale has always made me cringe. Photograph: Hulton Archive/Getty Images
Living Alone.

I’ve been living solo since August now. At first I was a bit antsy about the idea of being by myself and of the concept of becoming complement with silence/solitude. Being alone with myself and everything that I would be forced to deal with without the influence of others was initially terrifying. Especially without having cable, internet, or a descent job at first.

But I have grown to love living alone and actually look forwards to nights in. I feel so fortunate to have this oppurtunity. It’s amazing to know that everything around me is my own and is a representation of my own existence. After I left home for college, I have lived with 14 different people. While this is fascinating and I’ve learned so much from becoming so close to others (and often strangers), it has given me such an appreciation towards independence. It’s such a relieving feeling to no longer have the burden of roommates (what they’re doing, what they’re feeling, and when they might pop in with who-knows-who or whatever haphazard drama). Being alone has become almost too comfortable. The more people I talk to about it either feel the same or resent being alone due to forced circumstances (divorce, relocating, widowing, etc.). Either way, at the end of the day you are left to the solitude of your own being and the sense of comfort instilled upon the dependance of yourself. Why not embrace this?

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featherumbrellas: winter is for moving on
The view from my window is so beautiful